From Skepticism to Appreciation


The chosen coconuts must be hanging alone, not in a bunch, and they must come from the east side of the tree and be harvested on Good Friday, only. This is part of the recipe for concocting the special oil that heals many ills and also protects from bad spirits, witches and those with evil intent. If someone touches you and you are not carrying a small bottle of the oil on your person, you must touch them back to keep any evil from settling on you and causing you harm or even death.

A woman should never let her panties hang on the line to dry overnight, outdoors. If she does, she risks becoming impregnated by a non-human being of the night. And if that happens, she will conceive a white child with white hair, not a typical Filipino child. And the child will not be wholly human.
                                                                                                             
A certain movement of the fingers, pointed at oncoming rain, can prevent the rain from coming further.

Evil beings can inhabit trees and take on human form and if angered can cause a person’s life to become a nightmare for them and their generations to follow.

The Philippine culture is rich with beliefs in magic, other-worldly beings, witches, the power of concoctions, healers and more. A woman in northern Cebu comes from a long line of healers. Eating her deceased brother’s teeth and using his skull in rituals helped enable her healing powers.

Uncle Placido has the third eye. He has the ability to see spirit beings. So did his mother before him – Emelie’s grandmother.  

These are just a few of things I’ve heard since living here the past 10 months. There are some things I just plain don’t believe, like the woman’s underwear on the clothesline being responsible for pregnancy. No way. Some woman must have invented that one when she became pregnant as the result of an affair. And the excuse was kept alive through the generations by other women caught in the same predicament. “Oh my gosh honey! Must have been those panties I left on the line overnight!”

I can attest to the healing power of the special coconut oil: two drops of it cured, almost instantly, nausea I had had for several hours. Emelie borrowed a bottle of the oil from her cousin, Nilo, who got it from Placido. Emelie didn’t tell me much about the oil. She just said, “Take this. You won’t believe in it, but take it anyhow.” I did. It worked.

I try to keep an open mind about things that are beyond my experience and knowledge. Emelie was right, I didn’t believe in the curative powers of the oil. But neither did I disbelieve. Why form an opinion at all if there isn’t enough information on which to base it?

The Philippine people have been here long enough to have a rich cultural history. This is foreign to our American experience, since our ancestors came from many different countries and have only been in America for a few centuries at most.

I thought about what it must be like to grow up in this area of the world, where traditions and beliefs have been passed down through the centuries, by word of mouth, from one generation to the next. The Spanish oppressed the Philippines for almost 500 years, but failed to erase the beliefs and traditions of the people, even when those beliefs ran counter to Catholicism, the religion forced upon the Filipinos. What a testament to the lasting-power of their traditional culture.  

Both the differences and the similarities between Filipinos and Americans are a source of fascination for me. The differences point out the diversity which adds color and variety to our lives, and enables us, of a different culture, to look at life from another point of view. 

For me, this creates an opportunity to not only  consider different beliefs but to reconsider my own, in light of the new perspective. In doing so, something happens which I never expected: I begin to see that what I assumed to be a fact - to be reality - is often just a belief; just another point of view. This is a humbling awareness and it leads me to a greater respect for the culture and its people, in which I am immersed.

Ahhhhhh!!!!!

Today flowed along like warm honey in the sunshine: sparkling gold, smooth and sweet. Before the gang got here, I decided to make an effort to pay more attention to the boys. The last time they were here, Gab about drove me nuts trying to get my attention. So, when Emelie announced that they were walking on the road, just about to the house, I put on a happy face and prepared myself to speak in joyous tones.

It wasn't necessary. When I saw Frederick, then Gab, come through the door, a genuine happiness rode roughshod over my fake one. I was glad to see them. We played, went swimming, studied, sang, ate, swam again, played some more and just generally enjoyed each other's company immensely. Stephanie was singing up a storm while dividing her time between cooking, cleaning and watching the kid. Shane peed twice on the floor and made us all laugh with her baby antics. Once, when I was singing, she sang out in accompaniment with all the strength her little lungs could muster.

The day was filled with happy noises, laughter and music. Plumb wore me out, so I took a long nap in the middle of it all. When I awoke, I found the two boys sacked out, unconscious to the world, in the other bedroom. Emelie had threatened them: no nap, no coming with us to the shop - our internet cafe - to play games on the computers. A punishment to rival the medieval rack.

Boyish delights. Young woman's dreams. A baby's innocent explorations. And behind it all, my wife's quiet and strong presence, watching her flock like a seasoned shepherdess while taking care of household business.

So it went.And here I am,basking in the satisfied feeling that comes when a near-perfect day announces itself, in retrospect, during a quiet evening's reflection.

I think. I thank. I thunk.

I can still conjugate!

Breakfast was oatmeal. Chocolate oatmeal. That's how we like it. Nice and dark. When Emelie was half finished, she remembered that there was still some rice in the pot from last night. She piled a huge scoop of it on top of her remaining oatmeal. With my glasses off and through a hard squint, it looked pretty good; like a mound of marshmallow fluff on top of double chocolate-fudge ice cream. Sometimes its better to distort reality just a little. It's not like a lie. It's more like the use of creative license.

Don't tell a Filipino that rice is a side dish. Every meal starts and ends with rice. Pork, beef, fish, goat, and dog (just kidding, for the most part) all come on a small plate to accompany a large serving of rice. If my wife runs out of rice part way through a meal, she has to stop eating until another plate of it comes to the table. This is no exaggeration, and Emelie is not unique in this. Rice is the fuel of the Asian world.

The kids are coming this weekend: Emelie's sister's kids. We haven't had them with us for almost three weeks. It has been a quiet and uneventful three weeks. Salamat sa Dios! Stephanie and her 16 month-old daughter, Shane, will be moving back in with us. Frederick and Gabriel will be here until we drop them off at school on Monday morning, with their backpacks of untouched paper and pencils and a lunch purchased that morning at Rose's Carenderia.

Life seems to always put me in situations which point out my errors in thinking. For example: I thought I had boundless love for children and that any obstacle or challenge in caring for them would easily be overcome by that boundless love. I was wrong. I'm more selfish than that. Without going into details about the particulars of my brand of selfishness, or how it clashes with the needs and desires of the kids, I can tell you that I am okay with my limitations, in that regard. And it would be only truth to tell you that investing myself in being who I really am is much more important to the well-being of all of us - including the kids - than trying to live up to who I thought I was. So be it.

When the kids come tomorrow, I won't suggest any changes to our routine or our living and visiting arrangements. I will just see what transpires as each situation is approached from the perspective of my new awareness and resulting priorities.